I have a realisation...

I've made so many mistakes already... it gets irritating when they come back to haunt you...

Am I speaking sense?

Well..

People talk about love and relationship so much... and I can't say I really understand... I mean yeah.. I have tried to be in love.. once. twice. or more. Well.. I dunno.. but it NEVER work out..

I hate to say this... but I always regret for my stupidity...

I find all that is a caprice of behaviour.. something impulsive.... had I used my brain a little more.. it would have never happened... and I wouldn't come to regret all these...

I always try to convince myself that I like the person I'm with..

like "I realli realli like you.. so if you leave me.. I will be sad... realli realli sad..."

And then again... I do feel sad when it ended... but is not becoz I have "realli realli like you."

Rather.. I was devastated that I didn't and couldn't feel sad of you leaving. My heart feels relief.. all the time.. is like a kite having its string cut loose once again.. I felt air in my lungs again.. after the prolonged suffocation... and then the sadness set in...

I was made to face myself again.. the cruel heartless creature I know I was and still is...

I know what I was doin when I'm with you.. I tried to make you dislike me.. so I wouldn't need to punch in the lethal blow... and the sad thing is.. I tried to make you dislike me right away... after I am with you... when I realise immediately I wouldn't like you... and then i tried my utter bez to make you believe that I'm sad for the separation... and THAT really makes me sad...

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Did anyone watch A.I. before? It got to be one of the sadest movie I've ever watched... I love that movie.. but most probably.. I wouldn't want to watch it again.. unless I want to see my own reflection...

But no... I'm not thinkin that I am the robot who seek love and was denied for it... but the statue of the angel in front of the circus...

the scene of the robot boy begging the angel at the sunken circus keeps reverberating in my mind after the show...

the robot: Angel please turn mi into a little boy so my mother would love me... please turn mi into a boy... please turn mi into a boy...

the camera swivel around the angel... for a breathtaking second.. and then.. it quiet down... everyone thought of a miracle despite knowing the hopelessness of the situation... (I felt that the director was cruel to roll the camera for such a moment..)

n then... the robot remains a robot... not knowin that he had awaken a few centuries later... where his "mum" had already passed away and the world was already in another ice age...

THAT was sad.. and gosh.. my heart went so cold... I felt like the statue..

but wait...

does the statue feel at all in the first place?

OUR SHADOW PUPPET PLAY REHEARSAL

Right... the story of castle in the sky.. below r images from our play..

So the story begins with the protagonist Sheeta being captured and held at a tower.. she awakens a "robot soldier" that has fallen from Laputa some decades ago.. it then went berserk..


Cool right? :p


Then.. the scene of the bad guy (posing like Tony Leung in Infernal Affair..haha) finally killing off the robot..


Then encounters.. encounters in between.. before Sheeta and the other main actor Pazu landed on Laputa on a gliding kite.. So the scene of Pazu and Sheeta on Laputa




Encounter on Laputa with another robot soldier... this one is offering flowers to a tomb..



Right.. then we skip some scenes again.. and da dur~
Scene of the bad guy (same guy as the one who poses juz now) and Sheeta in the "control room" of Laputa.. activating the disastrous mechanism of the Castle...




Right... so thaz about it.. haha... we haven't done the final scene yet... but it looks great right? Is realli the most interestin project this sem... tho is rather time-consuming...

Well.. hope things go on fine... had a presentation todae as well.. I think it went fine.. (at least the reception looks OK to me.. Hahaa)

So thaz about it for todae... yawn... I'm goin to take a nap now... still have an online project meetin tonight...

Sigh...

This is life har..

CiaOz... n rebel.. er hem.. your interview realli is an awesome triumph.. not mani is able to achieve what you have done there... :p

Hey guyz... juz went to the Central Tea Restaurant in Holland V juz now.. is juz opposite the Subway

this is the name card.. well.. the food is similar to that in HK but the ambience is totally different.. If you guyz wanna try the food I would recommend it to a "taste" of food from traditional tea restaurants... esp. the french toasts r exactly like those served in HK TR

BUT... a very big BUT.. it feels too Singapore... what I mean is that the Restaurant PRETEND too much.. calling itself CENTRAL TEA RESTAURANT (adopting a HK's District name and havin some street names and HK pictures in the shop) but the cultural element is not there at all.. the designs are like any other western restaurants.. I juz feel that they misused the name of TR juz to get attention.. believe me.. I felt frustrated when I got there..

Haa.. it may sounds weird for me to be frustrated becoz of sth this small.. but TR has a certain image imprinted in me and I can't change that... It juz lacks sth.. Of coz, I'm not asking it to be exactly like that in HK since it is supposed to cater to the higher ends and wider masses.. but I juz feel that the amibience and decor can improved.. right now.. it juz looks like any other restaurants selling TR's food. (REBEL: Like the one we went to in Sun Tec City some time ago where they sell HK cusine..)

RIght... I may sound veri critical about it.. mb is becoz my Dad's fren whoz into F&B franchise asked for my opinions about that shop... I heard that he is setting up his own TR in IMM and is asking for concepts and ideas for his TR..

But do I mind going there for TR style food? Not realli. Not at this moment. Is better than nothing. Haha.. mb till my dad's fren set up his own... n i can tell u whether he adopted my ideas then :p

So.. as for now.. if anyone wanna go there n try the food.. do feel free to ask me! I will juz hold back my comments.. haha~

CiaOz for now

Messing up the place and doing PRODUCTIVE work... LoL.. Well.. actualli is juz "strategically" putting everything around me so that I "feel" like I am doing something productive... hahaa