Oh-oh, yes I'm the great pretender
Pretending that I'm doing well
My need is such
I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh-oh, yes I'm the great pretender
Adrift in a world of my own
I've played the game
but to my real shame
You've left me to grieve all alone

Too real is this feeling of make-believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Yes I'm the great pretender
Just laughin' and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not,
you see I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around


Hey ppl..

Pls bear with me...

Not at home these daez...

Went over to my fren's place to sleep...

Phone is completely dead...

She had this song by The Platters... Great Pretender...

Never heard of it before.. but fall in luv with it real soon..

Haa..

CiaOz...

Went out todae...

Well.. somehow it felt like a painfully long day...

Is weird... is still the same 24 hours I have had for the last 20 plus years of my life..

But it feels painstakingly long...

Why?

Perhaps is juz the affair of the heart?

ErM... maybe yes. maybe no.

Thankz palz for withstanding your troublesome fren. me.

Thanks for sending roses to my place on my birthdae. Whoever you are. 

When I was 12, my form teacher used to call us (the children) "Great pretenders."

I have forgotten the reason for calling us that... maybe we are good at playing innocent roles when we didn't do our homework...

You know.. the my-dog-eat-my-homework crap or my-baby-sister-poop's-on-it bull... Anyway, I have used neither excuses..

I don't even remembered telling a lie because of not doing homework.. I juz said I forgot to do.. is so much easier to tell the truth when everyone else is thinking up excuses...

But the point is.. the idea of the "Great Pretenders"..

Maybe.. maybe life is really about the great pretense. You go into roles of a colleague, classmate, friend, a sister or a brother, a daughter or a son, a girlfriend or a boyfriend, a husband or a wife.. n hope to play these roles seamlessly

But somehow along the way.. things always go wrong.. n a pretense can become a hurtful deception.. since after all.. you are juz pretending... do you mean those things you do?

Of coz... there muz be people who mean the things they do.. but maybe there are juz too few of them...

Anyway.. some guyz said this:

To pretend, I actually do the thing: I have therefore only pretended to pretend.

Maybe.. is not wrong to live a life of pretense after all... since we are pretending to pretend?!

Great.. I am going round in circle now...

Nevermind me..